I've finally completed my commissions and don't have anything else to upload here in the near future. So I'm all set to make the announcement: I'm taking a hiatus. Yup. I'm taking a break. This means I'm gonna take a break from occupying myself with my accounts and from posting art. As to why I've taken this decision, it's a combination of reasons that lead to ultimately not having as much time, energy nor motivation to post anything.

Firstly, it's because of my academic career. I'm currently completing a master's degree, and I'm currently doing two seperate scientific investigations. Simultaneously. This means I have to dedicate a lot of time to reading articles and performing actual lab research. Which is a cool experience, but that's not the point. These courses require my full attention and have already taken a toll on my posting schedule. My latest commissioners had to wait since mid-August to get their drawings! In addition to that, I'm also applying for a part-time job as a tutor, so taking commissions could be less of a necessity for me at the moment. Even if I do manage to get the hang of the semester (as I always do) and find time to draw, I'd rather do it for my own leisure instead of adding more to my workload.

Then there's a another whole face of the problem: I'm facing what could be the worst and most depressing burnout I've ever experienced. I can't even pinpoint it to a single cause. One of them is that I don't feel compelled by my style anymore. It has become repetitive and stagnant. My brushes and strokes lack any texture and it looks too clean to be interesting. So in a recent artwork I decided to revamp my methodology. The result was mind-opening as to the possibilities of how I could evolve that it put me in the realization of just how little I knew about drawing. And having that realization while you have some commissions pending is fucking terrifying.

But I think what really bothers me is that I've somehow lost touch with my interests. My art is mostly fanart, a way to share my interests as I present them in a transformative light. But I feel like I've been drawing so much that I haven't dedicated time to anything else and I've run out of things to take from but from my artwork itself. So I end up in a constant feedback loop of brainrot, revisiting the same themes, works, characters, etc. I don't feel like my art is representative of me yet, and even less now that I've somehow forgotten the things I liked(??????). It sounds crazy, but I cannot describe it any other way. It's some identity crisis type of shit.

So, how is a hiatus supposed to help with this? Well, firstly, more time for university and related responsibilities. It can give me more flexibility for managing my time, because now I have more of it, obviously. And secondly, I can take more to revisit my interests in my free time. Revisiting old media and inspirations is the first thing that comes to mind. And this can give me the motivation to try new techniques and aesthetics in my methodology. Remember, the hiatus means that I stop posting, not that I stop drawing. I want to stop thinking about my profiles and social media for a while so I can deliver to my original and true target audience: myself.

So yeah! That's it. As to when will this hiatus end, that depends on how I perform, both in drawing and real life responsibilities. I hope to comeback for the holidays, that this is all just a brief hiccup in my hobby and that I'll be good as new when the time comes. But for now, I'm gonna take things slowly, one day at a time. This is for my well-being.

Oh and the account is grayscale now. It's kinda like representative of the stasis this account is, which is pretty trippy.

Well...Bye!